The following poem was written by my friend H.D. We’ve been friends for 8 years. He’s currently being held in a state psychiatric facility. Hopefully soon he’ll be released and be able to take the stage and share his story. Until then, I’m sharing his poem. I found it incredibly insightful. Anyone who lives with or has a loved who has bipolar, PTSD and/or struggles with addiction this poem will resonate.
My life is so contradictory it is as if it has been lived in reverse
My life is so ironic I wouldn’t be surprised if I was born in a hearse
My Life is having a slice of the American dream, a suburban fable
My life is a mutilated body, a toddler lying on an operating table
My life is an innocent boy taught never to yell or to curse
My life is a constant struggle, it stings and it hurts
My life is popularity while clicked in with the coolest kids in School
My life is a rapid rise to success, followed by a permanent position as a fool
My life is a privileged upbringing and food on the table
My life is a junkie brother that my Father would always enable
My life is the path of a warrior and the story of a survivor
My life is seeing drugs turn friends into backstabbing connivers
My life is an epic, yearlong, exotic vacation
My life is seemingly endless social deprivation
My life is a 3.8 GPA at a major University
My life is a mind skedded by psychiatric obscurity
My life is scaling massive peaks and climbing 1,000- foot rocks
My life is a battle to stand and it is agony when I walk
My life is endless mountain ranges that are covered in snow
My life is locked inside a cell with a dark, fluorescent, artificial glow
My life is a constant quest for action and thrills
My life is a daily force-fed handful of pills
My life is designer drugs and performance enhancing amphetamines
My life is barely missing a life sentence served in a state penitentiary
My life is moments of ecstasy and exciting nights without sleep
My life is terror filled unconsciously with Freddy Krueger on Elm Street
My life is being starved of rest till I scream and rip at my sheets
My life is energy so profound even the strongest meds couldn’t treat
My life is learning a language and flying around the world for a girl I never kissed
My life is a vast sea of potential wasted and opportunities forever missed
My life is Freedom to the wind, in Seattle, the city of rain
My life is the scorched Mojave Desert, stuck in confines, certifiably insane
My life is racing seamlessly through forests in an expensive Subaru sports car
My life is a continuous collection of broken bones and a bountiful set of scars
My life is on my hand and knees, searching for leftover drugs till I hurt my back
My life is Flushing a $3,000 necklace, just to see how my ego would react
My life is lived through fast paced excitement and fulfilling passions
My life is waiting endlessly for worthless commissary rations
My life is gliding through the sky at death-defying, terminal velocity
My life is seemingly ruined by a single, psychotic alleged atrocity
My life is holding onto audacious goals, I still believe I can fly
My life is day-to-day challenge, just to get by
My life is a constant case of close calls and unbelievable miracles
My life is intermittent unfortunate events, undeniably satirical
My life is overcoming incredible odds with un-phased determination
My life is a final freak accident, cheating me of remarkable coordination
My life is preachers telling me “you’re never given more than you can handle”
My life is having a guardian angel, when I still think religion is a scandal
My life is full appreciation for the moon, the stars, and all of creation
My life is characterized by risk taking behavior and suffering suicidal ideation
My life is day dreaming so much, my mind changes hand over fist
My life is waking up from a medically induced coma cuffed at both wrists
My life is a beautiful, luscious spot in nature where I prosper and thrive
My life is a barren, fenced off enclosure wondering what it means to be alive
My life is seeing and experiencing some of the world’s most amazing sights
My life is consumed by fire, as I am seared on bloody asphalt, and read my rights
My life is two severe brain disorders mixed with chemical dependence
My life is irreplaceable artwork lost through scorching fires of biblical vengeance
My life is a universe bent on pulling me down, in a world that always prevails
My life is a fate staying on track, when my luck tends to go off the rails
My life is struck by unexplained phenomena, an orb of white light in a powerful storm
My life is obliviously anything but moderate, typical, or adhering to the norm
My life can be summarized or defined in one final rhyme
My life is forever blessed and it’s cursed, at the same time
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